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Life just...really sucks right now. I guess I can't get over my last boyfriend but to be honest I don't think I want to..which sucks cuz I'm sure he's moved on....I mean its been 3 months and even tho we talk daily..lately its only been like one or 2 messages from him and there usually short maybe one or 2 word answers to stuff. He's had 2 gfs since we've broken up...one of them he was making out with the week after we broke up. I kissed a guy a few weeks ago and felt guilty for some reason and told my ex and he flipped out....does that make any sense? He can have 2 different girlfriends and go out partying and stuff but I drink vodka while hanging out with a friend and he says I'm "stealing his schtick" and I kiss a guy on random impulse and he flips the fuck out on me....he does that any time I mention any guy..gets super jealous. I guess it just bugs me cuz he doesn't really have a right to. Have I mentioned yet that he wants me to wait for him to turn 18 so we can be together? I want to...I really do its just...I'm afraid I'm stuck hanging on something...I mean he just turned 17 and he has his life ahead of him and he probably won't even remember the girl he was in love with when he was 16......and it hurts cuz I know people change from when their 16. When I was 16 I thought i'd be with Josh forever and that we'd stay in love or whatever and get married and that everything would be easy, but it wasn't and we aren't and enough about him.....I guess what's really really bugging me is that college seems to have given all my friends this strength and courage and... I still feel like that high school freshman who followed her friends up 3 flights of staairs gus she wasn't paying attention and ended up being late to her first ever high school class. Lately I've been so alone and umm I guess I'm doing this here cuz I can't do it on facebook or to anyone cuz they always seem insanely busy. Too much is going on and I wish I had somebody to talk to, help me get through all this, and idk tell me everythings gunna be ok......and everything hurts. My parents wanna kick me out if I don't get a job and I'm trying but no ones hiring me and they say I'm not trying and I guess it hurts cuz I'm the adopted daughter...and it makes .me feel like I'm being disowned and thrown away. My friends getting ready for her first yr of college, my best friend in the entire world has a job and doesnt have time for me, one of my friends just had a baby so she has more than enough to deal with, and ive lost touch with my other friends....we still talk but after being appart for a yr its just awkward. So that just leaves me sitting at home all day every day apply to jobs, hoping they'll take a chance on me, watching One Tree Hill on netficks, and waiting for around 9pm when my ex usually replies....the sad hing is sometimes I think about ending my pathetic life and I know that bad and wrong but I dunno....my life just sucks...if you can help in any way you can text me at (871) 458-0567 or kik me....usernames the same as it is here just let me know who you are/where I know you from/how I know you
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hey guys! :) If you wanna kik me my username is lonelytwinklegrl. Don't be shy lol :hug:
I'm failing...as alway
Everyone else seems to have such an easy time in college. They get it. They understand. I don’t seem to. Maybe I wasn't meant to. I tried so hard but cant seem to get it. tried so hard. Still fail. Still yelled at. Told I didn't. cant study. Cant focus. Never gunna get out of here. Gonna die here. in this stupid town. in this stupid house. without ever really getting out there. Useless and alone. Cant do anything right. Cant study. Cant get good grades. Unable to focus and concentrate like everyone else. How'd I even get out of high school? Swear i'm freaking retarded. Seriously why couldn't I pass those classes?! Psych paper prob the o
late friends
Is it just me or is anybody else upset when friends are late when they set the time to do stuff? Some friends and I are gunna go do this "7 gates to hell" thing for one of my friends birthday and they said they'd pick me up at 9:30 *currently 9:41* on the way back from spending the day with and getting another friend who's also going. The girl she's with right now lives kinda far away so I'm probably freaking for nothing but I messaged another person at 9:18 *she's supposed to be going too* and she hasn't replied...
Should I go?
Urg my life can jst be described as that right now...my ex wants me to sneak out tomorrow and meet him at the park and I want to..I really do but I'm scared we'll get caught. I love this guy so much and he's being kicked out in a few weeks and sent to florida so I'll probably never see him again and I just don't want to lose him...he's the first guy I've ever been able to actually see myself with forever and the fact that he's leaving scares me. I asked my guy friend who I consider a brother what he thinks I should do and he said to just not go at all. And we go into a fight over it. And I still don't know if I should go.....I love this guy m
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If you breakup with someone u can do whatever you decide to so he can't flip on u and he would probably forget u if u wait till he's 18 I'm not him so I wouldn't know that's all I got to say. Sorry